Heart Songs

So I'm starting this blog here because writing a million notes on facebook is obnoxious and myspace blogging is rendered pointless by the fact that no one uses it anymore. It also helps that, for some odd reason, I have a silly fascination with putting my thoughts down on things... And I'm really looking forward to have something on which to hone my vocabulary and other writing skills... Meaning I will try to keep this blog less pointless, and more meaningful.

So, with the irony of what I just said lingering boldly on the page, let me tell you a bit about who I (think) I am (a.ka. mindless blathering).

I would like to start by saying, I am an extremely flawed individual. I will probably say things in this blog that you will find absurd. I tend overreact and I feel too much too quickly, without thinking ahead. I'm trying to get better about that... My biggest worries are always my loved ones and money. I love making people happy and I fret when I think the people I care about may be in pain or discomfort, even... And then of course, money is a worry for everyone. This combination, however, leads me to a rather paralyzing condundrum... I love being generous to the ones I care about but spending money kind of freaks me out >< Try to solve THAT one...

I love intensely. Don't be my friend if you can't handle me being worried about you. I tend to speak my mind amply, without being prompted and I don't always have nice things to say. I WILL tell you if I think you're being stupid. It's not that I'm trying to me mean or abrasive or anything like that... It's just that you really should know, it's for your own good. You can say nothing about me if not that I'm honest... Even if it is to a fault sometimes...

I am with the most wonderful man on the earth <3 And I intend to spend the rest of my life with him.

I hate raw meat. I refuse to touch it. I love pepsi <3 It's delicious. Twilight is maybe the worst thing to happen to our society as a whole (I'll probably go in depth on this in another blog entry... I tend to get very ranty on the subject). I like to party, but it's not my focus. There are other things that are more important. I strongly feel it is EXTREMELY important to have a focus in your life. It's too easy to get lost through the years without one. Mac and Cheese will forever have a place in my heart. Thought, really, I just love food. I LOVE music.

I grew up too fast, but I am still a child in so many ways, and so very capable of making mistakes... This frustrates me to no end, as I am somewhat of a perfectionist and I have very high expecations of myself. I pride myself on being a hardworker, but at the same time, I am INCREDIBLY lazy... I seriously astound myself sometimes....

I believe all writers are at least somewhat narcissistic. I guess that makes me a narcissist...

Just in case all this mindless blathering didn't tell you that...

"These are my heart songs
They never feel wrong
And when I wake for goodness sake
These are the songs I keep singin'"

- Heart Songs, Weezer