There You'll Be

Do you ever get that after-the-storm-sunshine-breaking-through-clouds-feeling?

That is how I feel in this exact moment. Let me tell you why.

I have come to realize that through this twisted and gnarled rollercoaster we call life, we all come across the turns that were to sudden and too fast, or the loops that left us feeling nauseous. In spite of all that, in the end, what really matters is that at the end of the ride, we look back and feel invigorated! No regrets. We had fun.

I am one of those people that has a really difficult time looking ahead, towards the big picture, especially when I'm upset or angry (in other words, I'm not very good at following my own advice). It's an unfortunate aspect of my personality: I dwell first, and then when I'm ready, I'll move forward. I'm not totally convinced there's a cure for it, but I like to think one day I'll grow out of it.

Right now I'm at that re-realization point where I'm starting to feel really good about my life again. I can still see all the twists and turns but I now know that because of some of them, I have discovered myself in a whole new light, and in spite of some of them, I am a more dynamic individual, and I have not allowed myself to be conquered.

My perception of my life is such that I can now notice that a lot of amazing people have come in and out of my existence, and they have all left a piece of themselves with me. I think everyone has those people in their life that they think about often, and no matter how you parted, on terms good or bad, they changed you, they made you who you are, and in some way you love them. Perhaps you don't love them for what they did to you or the kind of person they are, but because they made you more than you were, and maybe at some point they made you happy.

I know now that whatever happens will happen, and if a puzzle piece is built to fit in to your picture, it will. If it isn't, it won't. I also feel like there are some people who are just destined to gravitate to each other, and no matter what happens, in the end you will be tied, even if the situation isn't what you thought it would be.

So I conquered that roller coaster! I'm in one of those strange moods again.... I can't wait to see what happens next! It feels good to know that in the end everything will work out!

Sidenote: I am NOT a fan of Shania Twain. Just sayin.



When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I'll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
-There You'll Be, Shania Twain